Was is really the beginning, that is my divorce in 1999? Or was the beginning really as a child when I was allowed to eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I had no rules, no boundaries, no punishments. I did whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and no one told me no. I still don't like being told what to do, what I can eat, how to do my work, I like to do my own thing my own way. Have I ever caused trouble? No. Have I ever been in trouble? No. Common sense saved me. Except for when it came to losing and keeping off weight. There always had to be something dramatic in my life that caused the weight loss.
In the eighth grade I weighed 210 lbs! Huge. A boy I really liked told me I had pretty eyes but I was too fat for him to date. It crushed me. So that summer break I would go up to the high school track at night and hide under the bleachers until all the thin runners would finish their work outs, then I would run the track, in the dark, alone. I hated it, but I wanted it. By the time I started ninth grade I was 176. I had always hated gym class, and in ninth grade gym was everyday, all year long! Worst yet the way our periods were formatted the lunches were three 30 min periods called 5a, 5b, and 5c. Every other class was 40 minutes. Well I had gym 5a and b,and lunch 5c, so that was a 60 min gym class instead of 40. Yuk. Well, soon, my new best friend that came from another school and was a gymnast always stood beside me in class. Whether we were running, doing aerobics, dance, whatever, she stayed with me, although she could easily surpass my efforts, she stayed there and pushed me. I loved gym for the first time in my life because I was doing well because of her. By the time I started 10th grade I was 168 without even trying. I went to get my driver's license and when I told the clerk my weight, she looked at me funny because everyone knows, girls don't really give their real weight on this, but I was proud of my weight for the first time in my life, and I wanted that number on my license! More to come later, please stay tuned or my story.
